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Download Mobi ☆ Before I Die ´ 326 pages ´ Naturaltreatment ë Tessa has just a few months to live Fighting back against hospital visits endless tests and drugs with excruciating side effects Tessa compiles a list It's her Before I Die list And number one is sex Starting tonightReleased from the conNightReleased from the constraints of 'normal' life Tessa tastes new experiences to make her feel alive while her failing body struggles to keep up Her feelings her relationships with her father and brother her I feel like a jerk for not giving this story stars I mean it's a book about a sixteen year old girl trying to live life to the fullest before dying of cancer I keep thinking only a heartless baby eating monster would give this book less then four stars Well I suppose I am that monster minus the whole baby eating thingIt's not like the premise failed to pull at my heartstrings as I read this book I genuinely felt for the girl And it's not like the author went out of her way to manipulate her audience This book never crosses the line into full on manipulation though there are times I feel it comes close but not enough to bother me My problem lies with the protagonist Tessa Yeah you read that right I don't like the main character a teenage girl dying of cancer Before you start throwing things let me explain Like I said before I felt for Tessa because her situation is incredibly tragic but I'm sorry she sucks I know she's dying but that doesn't give her an excuse to manipulate everyone around her into doing what she wants them to do Dying young isn't some get out of jail free card you can wave around when your actions have negative conseuences that you'd rather not face Here's the deal Tessa has a list of ten things she wants to do before she dies Sounds good right Well the majority of the things on the list are reckless or selfish or illegal or just plain stupid Sometime a combination of all four And you know what That's not so bad doesn't necessarily bother me Teenagers do stupid selfish andor illegal stuff Tessa wants to sow some wild oats before dying I get it What bothers me is the fact that she believes the rules shouldn't apply to her because she is dying she can do whatever she wants damn the conseuences What's worse Tessa demands a lot from her friends and family At times she asks them to do things that even under the tragic circumstances are too much to ask When they seem reluctant to comply she tells them that whatever it is she's asking happens to be on her list Most of the time these things were not on her list until conveniently they were It's her manipulation that really gets to me I hate that she resorts to manipulation to get whatever she wants At one point Tessa throws a monumental fit I mean off the charts huge because she doesn't get what she wants when she wants it to make love with her boyfriend Don't get me wrong I knew her her freak out had to do with the fact that she's dying so young before she's old enough to really do anything be anyone then anything else But still she took it a little too far I thinkIn the end I got the idea that she had a full grasp at what was truly important in life But for me Tessa's understanding came too late in the game It happened so late that I heartless monster that I am had already spent some time wondering when she was going to just die already Yes this really did go through my mind then a few times near the end of this book if this weren't a total work of fiction I'd be going to hell for that I'm sure I know I'm a monster for not giving this book stars unfortunately I'm unable to give this book then the two stars I've given it PS Because I'm unable to recommend Before I Die to anyone I'm going to go ahead and recommend Before I Fall which is another YA book which deals with death and is in my humble opinion infinitely better then this book

Doc ð Before I Die ☆ Jenny Downham

Tessa has just a few months to live Fighting back against hospital visits endless tests and drugs with excruciating side effects Tessa compiles a list It's her Before I Die list And number one is sex Starting to 35 ⭐️ I’ve watched the film Now is Good which I believe is based on this book so I did notice a few familiar parts Tessa has leukaemia She has very little time left to live and she is determined to do a few things before her time comes The main one being sex Shortly followed by drugs breaking the law etc etcI liked Tessa’s character – she is angry she is unreasonable she is dying – is there any right way to be Sometimes she made me mad but then that is the point I loved her dad and her brother Cal they were both so good for her Her best friend Zoey was a bit hit and miss but again it proves how imperfect humans are and how we are all just muddling along as best we canThere we some parts I didn’t like – fat shaming and anti abortion are the main two I can think of right now Overall this is a powerful read on what is truly important and it really does make you appreciate being alive I seem to have a sadness wish by reuesting all these emo reads from the library

Jenny Downham ☆ Before I Die Book

Before I DieEstranged mother her best friend and the powerful bittersweet first love she finds with the boy next door all are painfully yet beautifully crystallized in the precious weeks before Tessa's time finally runs out We know three pages into “Before I Die” that sixteen year old Tessa won’t survive her leukemia and that there’s plenty she still wants from life So she makes a list and vows to do everything on it before she diesLike most teenagers Tessa is at odds with her parents and angsty about how life’s shortchanged her At first her ranting and left field demands seem too adolescent Isn’t the looming presence of death supposed to mature her beyond her yearsBut that’s precisely the kind of “dying young” trope that Downham admirably resists throughout the novel Tessa burns up a maddening number of days moping when we think she should be fulfilling her dreams She finally pushes herself to face facts “I have two choices stay wrapped in blankets and get on with dying or get the list back together and get on with living”Downham escapes the common shortcoming of many young adult novels in which the only character that ever really matters to us is the speaker In this novel Tessa’s relationships are so dynamic that we ache with her at the thought of losing them Throughout the book their interactions thrum with tension and tenderness There’s Cal the tactless younger brother who helpfully explains the process of decomposition And Zoe the careless best friend who has her own troubles to wake her up to life There’s Dad in denial determined to save Tessa through organic foods and fierce hugs Mom who cut out about the time of Tessa’s diagnosis and who remains slightly outside of the helping circle without becoming a monster And there’s Adam the blessing of love and vulnerability that lands next door to Tessa at the right time And where a lesser writer might swill us readers around in dying girl thought soup Downham lets the telling detail speak for Tessa’s feelings instead Her anger comes to us through her as she gives herself points for the imagined deaths of healthy strangers “One point for the lump on her neck raw and pink as a crab’s claw” We feel her hunger for life as she licks an ice cream stick until “the wood rasps my tongue” We know her true well wishes for those she loves as she dreams up a replacement for her boyfriend a “girl with lovely curves and breath like oranges”There’s nothing treacly here It’s a brave humanist novel one that leaves the reader gulping the polluted precious air of Tessa’s world with a passion and astonishment almost as great as Tessa’s Downham earns for us the catharsis of the ending for her characters come to take up real space in our hearts Up until the last word I think we hope that Tessa will somehow against all odds keep breathing When she doesn’t we mourn for Tessa just as she wished by remembering her